Food log (so far )
Breakfast and lunch - 0 cal
-cried in the morning and just finished crying again
-water
More crying
I feel like a terrible wife, he says im mean and prideful and that i dont care about him and that he cant talk to me.. and all I can do is listen and stay quiet… I stay quiet and take it all in and even if I respond to everything he says in my head.. it will never leave my head… so all he hears is nothing at all… silence from me because I never fixed myself and I’d rather die and be though of as a straight up cold hearted bitch then speak my mind and inconvenience others with my thoughts and feelings…. I am a terrible wife and I deserve nothing
anyone ever pretends to feel all right just so no one worries about you and then cry your eyes out when alone or is it just me
I‘m a burden for everyone. I’m even a burden to myself.
I am a bad person trying very hard to be a good person.
Nora Sakavic, The Raven King
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I can’t wait to sleep 6 feet under, that will be peaceful
I hate your friendships and I hate how you don’t see it… you don’t notice it.. I hate it and I hate you. I can’t even tell you this… so I’ll write it here
I hate it here, I feel like I can’t express myself without making someone mad. I hate everything about me and I hate everyone else.
I wish I could just disappear and become nothing else ever again
